my ED ruins everything...

I saw something on YouTube today and I wanted to talk about it obviously I can' talk about it on YouTube because I try to keep it PG 13 kind of.. Lol the mystery topic is porn yeah I said it porn.. is so triggering and I'm not even talking about from PTSD stand point obviously they can do something in pornography and it can remind you of the trauma that you had(position that they're doing, something that they said) it can make u have panic attack.. but the thing that that person was talking about was how she couldn't watch porn because it triggered her eating disorder and that was the first time I ever heard someone say that out loud I honestly thought that I was the only 1 I felt that way I mean come on everyone in porn are so pretty they have no pimples on their ass no ingrown hairs even thou they're freshly shaved, no weird like armpit hair dude there freaking perfect!! I mean even the people w/ big boobs and big asses they have the flattest little tummies and the people that are skinny are like so skinny that you can see the rib cages in certain positions and I know people get off by these.. like I know know know for fact that people are getting off these girls are sexy because it's freaking porn that's the whole point of looking at it. I mean yes I do have big boobs and I guess depends on who you ask I have a big butt too but I do not have a small tummy... I'm full figured even though I hate it