Just got off the phone with my physicist.. She keeps pissing me off telling me I abundant issues.. No shit! But we don't have to bring it up all the time (rather it's relevant or not to my current situation) I'm struggling to not hurt myself.. Home alone again Idk I think something happened this time of year that I pushed away. My physicist told me that I can call her later tonight If I need to but I don't want to give her a reason to send me to hospital. I suppose to call her in the morning to check in but Idk if I will are not.. All the talk about abuse on YouTube is supper triggering and I know it's something that needs to be talked about but when I wrote out an video outline today that's when it all started going to SHIT. Any one that knows me know I have had A LOT of abuse! But I put alot of it fair away in my head and forget about it. I call them "little incidences" but there is nothing little about assault in any form. Street harassment, people trying to pick up up for prostitution, attempted kidnapping, people exposing themselves, unwanted touching, and people asking for my information (phone number ect.) just to name a few are sadly the things I call "little incidences" cuz my other "real abuse" was 500% times worse. And even setting here writing this out has brought me to tears..
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