Trigger Warning
I'm not trying to be a attached whore I just have all these feelings and needed to get them out somewhere cuz it's way too fucked up to say outloaid
There's a part of me that knows I shouldn't... But I can't help but drown in be the alor of this desire.. I have a love-hate self-destructive relationship with you.. Although I know you may not be a good choice.. I often have you as a close second.. I know my family and friends hate you.. But I don't think they see your beauty.. You are a acquired taste that lingers in my mouth for over a decade now.. And at the in why not? You whisper sweet nothings in my hear since my young adolescents.. Who am I to deny you the fruit of your labor.. Know one has the work ethic as you you.. You work 24/7 even Whitecastles takes Chirstmas off.. You will be the end of every thing good in my life.. You will be the except for the dark I fear so much.. You will be the end and my new beginning... I don't fear you.. I welcome your presents hole heartedly.. You are death.. You are suicide... I'm unsure and unstable.. I fear your cold numbness.. But I'm still here.. Waiting for you to come.. Many people want me to stop but how can I with you holding me tight like a warm hug.. You're my down fall but at least I know you will never leave me.. I want to be close to you.. Closer than I've ever been before..
Maybe I won't... But maybe I will..
Sorry to anyone I hurt.. I tried but now I'm just tired
